February 9, 2018

Honesty


I recently asked on my Instagram if you guys were interested in why I've felt uninspired and discouraged lately and practically all of you said yes, so here you go. 

First, as anyone knows, Instagram or any social media can negatively effect your self image, self esteem, all that good stuff. That ain't a lie. I find myself every single day,  multiple times a day, comparing my: pictures, edits, number of followers, engagement, outfits, life, ya know, just about every freaking thing. Starting a blog, and really putting myself out there for judgement has made me feel more self conscious than ever, and confidence hasn't always been my strong suit.

Going off on the number of followers mentioned above; making your way in the "blogging world" is so damn hard. It's so saturated. It's difficult to stand out, and even more so when you're balling on a college student budget. There are so many apps that you can buy followers on but I refuse to try them. I want my growth on my Instagram to be real people who want to see my content, not just a large number of people who could careless about my pictures. Especially now that I'm working with brands,  buying followers would be so deceiving and I'm not into that what so ever. But holy hell... it's hard to grow on Instagram... so hard.... so if you ever feel like helping me out I would so appreciate it, comments, likes, telling your friends, it all helps. That's my charity pitch, thank you for listening.

I am constantly surrounded by inspiration, seriously, the number of hours I spend on Pinterest and Instagram in a day is quite absurd (if you don't follow me on them click on those words and they'll bring ya right there). While drowning in inspiration on a daily basis, the snow and winter in Michigan has really given me seasonal depression, it's a thing, look it up. There's only so many snowy pictures a girl can take and I think I've hit my max. Indoor locations are always hit or miss too. I'm just so ready for it to be spring and I can get back to taking pictures outside where there isn't at least a foot of snow on the ground.

All and all, I'm just feeling discouraged. I won't lie, I expected my numbers to be larger by now. If you know me you know I have a "go get em" attitude with little patience for the things I want, and that definitely holds true to my blog and Instagram. It sucks I know, my worth shouldn't be defined by the number of likes a post gets, the number of followers I have on Instagram, or the number of people, like you, who read my blog. But, when you put so much hard work and dedication to your dream and it isn't taking off at the speed you expected it to, you can't help but feel a little discouraged here and there. 

I appreciate all of you who cared why I'm feeling the way I am, and to you nosey peeps who just wanna know everything, I'm right there with you, I can't mind my own business either! 

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PS: Get you a boyfriend that buys you vintage Christian Dior for Christmas... thanks babe for the blazer! 


Peace! 
Taylor

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